Since I myself am more of the academic type, my
personal meaning for my life is to grow as an intellectual and attempt to
remain a student for the entirety of my life.
It is somewhat of a foreign concept for me to empathize with other
people’s pursuits that fall outside of the academic realm. While I have had
other experiences tutoring kids from this socio-economic background, it was
actually Mr. Jazz that made the broadest impact on my thought process. It was
inspiring for me to see an individual fully dedicating their life to the
cultivation of others’ lives. I feel that this speaks volumes about the Mr.
Jazz’s take on the meaning of life. I have come to reevaluate my take on
science. For much of my life I have been interested in knowing, simply for the
sake of knowing. I feel that this is a disconnect that exists between the
academic world and real world at times. But my reasons for focusing on the
natural sciences have been due to my fatalistic worldview. I have felt that we
as a species were probably too far gone, and that due to the current state of
affairs, there was little that I could do to change the dreary, deterministic outcome.
Volunteering in the IHAD program has initiated a change in this mindset. Being around Mr. Jazz, Ms. Danielle,
and those kids has forced me back down to Earth. Despite the fact that I had tutored before, these kids were able to affect me in a special way. Something about the look of excitement in
those kids eyes when you walk in triggers emotions and feelings that else truly can. In a corny way, I feel that I am learning what it means to be human. We are innately social beings and to deny that is to deny your very genetic programming, something that I feel that I may have been doing unconsciously. It was Dr. Hobby said, these kids expect something genuine out of you. It was startling when I attempted to use my typical tutoring demeanor, which has been successful with middle-schoolers to college students, but these kids were not having it. They forced me to loosen up and show them some true character. This has kind of stirred up the approach that I have taken to 1 on 1 interactions. Strangely, when giving a presentation or speaking to a large group I can be more comfortable than in 1 on 1 situation. IHAD will definitely lead to a change in my communication skills, because kids do not hold back feedback the way that adults do!
Overall, the IHAD experience in conjunction with our class material has forced me to reassess my reasons for pursing knowledge. Rather than understanding the way that nature works for knowledges sake I feel science needs to come down at times to work with layman. But this is a two-way street, a goal of mine that has come into fruition this semester is the enhancement of science literacy in America. A lack of science literacy has plagued minorities for decades, (see Tuskegee Study and The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks), but I feel that it is a problem across the board, as most americans do not understand fundamentals of scientific research nor do they understand how to interpret its results. For example, I log onto Facebook and I see that a "hippy" friend of mine has used a peer-reviewed source to argue that fluoride in water is truly bad. I find the article and it is only tangentially related to the topic that they were addressing! Additionally, we have fundmental lack of technological understanding. We are technologically literate, but computers and cell phones are black boxes, more magical items that need to be charged than carefully designed network of microcircuits. SO in summation to my rambling, I feel that increased fluency in scientific and technological concepts will lead to an positive increase in a number of other areas, like public support for research and even general concepts like evolution.